Monday, December 22, 2008

Yay, and a little sharing

Well, as of 5:00pm last Friday, I am officially jobless. There is a part of me that is not happy about that...I would like to be bringing in some money, but the larger part of me is glad I no longer have to go to that dreadful place. I will miss the kids. But I will not miss the owners who were not that nice, and felt it was appropriate to cut my hours among other things just because I didn't feel the job was right for me and gave two months notice (I would have been better off giving two weeks notice, would have had more hours then). Pretty much every single one of my co-workers there complained about them daily, and none of them are really happy in their jobs either. They just can't they stay in a job that does not make them happy. So, I continue my mission to find a job that I can look forward to doing...and will most likely be substituting until then (if I can figure out how to get the dang application).

The last few nights, I have been having a horrible time trying to sleep. I have been dead tired. And I mean that. My eyelids are heavy and my body exhausted, but my mind races and my heart does too. I don't know what is wrong with me. I spend about an hour to an hour and a half in bed before I finally get up because I can't stand lying in bed tossing and turning when I can at least be doing something else. Not to mention, I don't always like where my mind goes when I have unlimited time to think. So, I get up, do some stuff, feel sooo exhausted there is no way I can't fall asleep, and go to bed. But I make myself get up early anyway because I don't want to get in the habit of sleeping in. So, I'm not getting much sleep. I have an inkling what is wrong...but I'll share that at a later point.

With my bit of spare time, I've been going through some stuff. I went through a box today of my dad's papers for the farm to try and get rid of stuff I'd no longer need. I came across this:

Please click on the picture to enlarge it so you can read it. He pretty much dictated this to a family friend before he passed away. I think it says a lot about him, and about why my love for the farm was always so strong. I also think it is very fitting for the season considering Christmas trees are in a lot of people's homes right now.

Hope the last few days before Christmas aren't too stressful for everyone!


Kristen said...

The lessons article was amazing. Your dad sounds very special.

It was great getting to know you with the random facts. I hope you get to go to the moon!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays

Tiffany said...

Sounds like a stressful time right now. I hope you can get some rest and that you find a job you'll love.

Go ahead and write for the Shiny Things prompt on my blog. I'd love to see your take on the prompt!

ann ominous said...

aw that was really beautiful. i see where you get your writing ability!

hope you're doing okay... your 'inkling' made me think 'little wolfies and officer b's!!!'

Aleta said...

Body tired and Mind racing ~ from what I've heard is typically a sign of anxiety. It's nerves. Try doing something that you know is relaxing to your mind, not necessarily your body, but something that puts in you the "calm zone" before you go to bed.

Your father's article was beautiful. I loved how he wrote about the pruning of the trees and reflected on God's pruning of who we are. Beautiful.

What A Card said...

How nicely said!

And congrats??? on the last day at work...I know it can be stressful and exciting all at once. I substitute taught for a year, I'd recommend getting your name into a few school districts (I subbed for two local towns). Also, if you're at all interested in special ed, they usually need subs the most (a lot of people don't know how to handle it and refuse to sub in special ed).

Anonymous said...

Sorry you are having trouble sleeping. I too am always searching for the job that makes me truly happy.

Great article.
Happy Holidays!

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