Well, as of 5:00pm last Friday, I am officially jobless. There is a part of me that is not happy about that...I would like to be bringing in some money, but the larger part of me is glad I no longer have to go to that dreadful place. I will miss the kids. But I will not miss the owners who were not that nice, and felt it was appropriate to cut my hours among other things just because I didn't feel the job was right for me and gave two months notice (I would have been better off giving two weeks notice, would have had more hours then). Pretty much every single one of my co-workers there complained about them daily, and none of them are really happy in their jobs either. They just can't leave...so they stay in a job that does not make them happy. So, I continue my mission to find a job that I can look forward to doing...and will most likely be substituting until then (if I can figure out how to get the dang application).
The last few nights, I have been having a horrible time trying to sleep. I have been dead tired. And I mean that. My eyelids are heavy and my body exhausted, but my mind races and my heart does too. I don't know what is wrong with me. I spend about an hour to an hour and a half in bed before I finally get up because I can't stand lying in bed tossing and turning when I can at least be doing something else. Not to mention, I don't always like where my mind goes when I have unlimited time to think. So, I get up, do some stuff, feel sooo exhausted there is no way I can't fall asleep, and go to bed. But I make myself get up early anyway because I don't want to get in the habit of sleeping in. So, I'm not getting much sleep. I have an inkling what is wrong...but I'll share that at a later point.
With my bit of spare time, I've been going through some stuff. I went through a box today of my dad's papers for the farm to try and get rid of stuff I'd no longer need. I came across this:
Please click on the picture to enlarge it so you can read it. He pretty much dictated this to a family friend before he passed away. I think it says a lot about him, and about why my love for the farm was always so strong. I also think it is very fitting for the season considering Christmas trees are in a lot of people's homes right now.
Hope the last few days before Christmas aren't too stressful for everyone!